{"id":1910,"date":"2023-12-10T22:54:31","date_gmt":"2023-12-10T22:54:31","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/vanessasdomain.com\/?p=1910"},"modified":"2023-12-14T14:55:48","modified_gmt":"2023-12-14T14:55:48","slug":"a-blame-proxy","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/vanessasdomain.com\/?p=1910","title":{"rendered":"A Blame Proxy"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Do what thou whilt shall be the whole of the law.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>This is a shot easy on mental health and blame reposted due to its import stripped of its authorship by request of the author. Used with permission.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I have schizoeffective disorder so I&#8217;m sensitive about how people describe and label the concept of sanity.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>When people try to pass laws to restrict what people with mental health issues can and can&#8217;t do, they&#8217;re doing it to me. When they blame murders at the hands of cis-het white conservative males on mental health, they&#8217;re blaming it on me. When people use words like &#8220;psychotic&#8221; &#8220;insane&#8221; &#8220;schizoid&#8221; in a derogatory manner, they&#8217;re comparing them to me as an insult.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>It&#8217;s not like I asked the universe to be born with schizoeffective disorder. I hate everything about it. It&#8217;s horrible. It&#8217;s terrifying knowing that if something happened and I couldn&#8217;t get my Latuda, I would start slowly losing my mind. I got a small dose of what that&#8217;s like once when I couldn&#8217;t get a refill for 4 days. It&#8217;s real Flowers for Algernon type stuff.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I was a horrible person and hurt so many people I loved because of it being undiagnosed and untreated because of how it fucks with your mind.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>There&#8217;s no way to use words to describe what any of that is like.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>So you&#8217;ll never be able to truly empathize the experience. Nobody can who doesn&#8217;t also have the disorder. And please please please don&#8217;t go spreading that around. I don&#8217;t want rados knowing my diagnosis.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>&#8212;<em>Anonymous <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Love is the law, love under will.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>In solidarity,<br>Vanessa<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Do what thou whilt shall be the whole of the law. This is a shot easy on mental health and blame reposted due to its import stripped of its authorship by request of the author. Used with permission. I have schizoeffective disorder so I&#8217;m sensitive about how people describe and label the concept of sanity. &hellip; <\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a href=\"https:\/\/vanessasdomain.com\/?p=1910\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;A Blame Proxy&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[10],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1910","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-vanessas-domain"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/vanessasdomain.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1910","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/vanessasdomain.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/vanessasdomain.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/vanessasdomain.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/vanessasdomain.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1910"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/vanessasdomain.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1910\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1938,"href":"https:\/\/vanessasdomain.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1910\/revisions\/1938"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/vanessasdomain.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1910"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/vanessasdomain.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1910"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/vanessasdomain.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1910"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}