True Love and Desire

If you cannot tell the difference between a love formed from grasping (lust) from a love formed from giving (true love), then you’ve never known true love. True love isn’t interested in what one can get from the arrangement. True love just is, regardless of desires. Romance is rarely a gateway to true love, since it’s generally a product of desire. However it probably can sometimes blossom into such, but more often it simply survives through mutual desire which in itself isn’t true love as I am beginning to understand it.

I use the term true love in want of a more exact term. In this case I refer to true love as being the manifestation of the transcendence of duality. Acceptance of one fully and without reservation without regards to one’s own desires and perhaps even in spite of them and not even out of some vague often unrealised ultimate desire for some promise of the potential of future fufillment of desire. It is this later form of desire that most often leads one to mistake the two. Lust is often good at hiding itself in a cloak of seemingly altruistic desire. Even if the desire to see oneself as a good person or fufill ones own sense of obligation to help others, it is still a form of desire and is therefore distinct from true love. This does not however make it in any way a bad thing. I do not believe that desire is inherantly a negative thing in itself. If the desire ultimately leads one to positive things then the desire is ultimately positive. Rather, it is simply a recognition that there is a form of love for another that exists which transcends such things. A love beyond romance and beyond all desires, even positive ones. I only now have come to recognize it because I’ve begun to feel it for the first time. I have the Buddhists, which I joined in a meditation ritual recently, to thank for this revelation, though it took the works of Philip K. Dick (though serendipitously as it wasn’t from the content itself but rather the realizations it caused within me) to actually recognize the truth of this feeling and what it really was.

I believe that this represents the beginning of my initiation into Keter. I knew I was at the doorway of Keter, but I’m only now starting to parse the lessons it has to teach. Starting my book was the first step on this length of the journey, but contrary to my initial speculation, I am not yet at the end but merely the beginning of the end. I’m learning more things about the ultimate mysteries of the universe than I ever thought possible but with it I’m learning about new, more powerful, positive feelings than I ever thought possible. I am as yet unsure of how this will ultimately effect me but I can tell already that it is going to somehow change me very fundamentally for the better.

Goals and Aspirations

There’s a lot of talk about goals and aspirations but few people really sit down and work out exactly what world there’d like to live in if everything was right in the world. What would the ideal life look like?

Most people would probably unthinkingly answer “I want to be rich” but rarely does that come with really thinking about what that looks like. People with money are generally constantly on the edge about their money. Worried that some day they won’t have it.

To quote the Tao Te Ching, The house that is full of Jade and jewels cannot be guarded.

Even worse, if you become rich in isolation of those around you, you might suddenly find yourself alone with nobody to share your new world with, just like what happened to the creator of Minecraft.

Some people take this a step further and realize they would be happier with everyone in their community becoming rich together so they start having dreams of communism but once again they don’t really think this all the way through. Communism is based on a paradigm of working. You may have equal wealth but that comes with equal endless work because that’s the structure of society as it is. We already don’t need to work except to keep the system happy. Most jobs in first world countries are unnecessary. They exist to keep people employed because the system is designed to keep people working and struggling merely to keep the current power structure in place.

But what if there was a better way? Permaculture is the science of using the way nature already works to grow a literal forest of food in your own backyard. Imagine walking out your back door and having all the food you’d ever need.

But again there’s problems if this is alone your solution. Sure, now you don’t have to work just to avoid starvation but now you have a lot of people with nothing to do and no idea how to be without the power structures in place because they’ve spent their entire lives focused on survival in those power structures. So now they’re just going to start fights over stupid things like religion.

Of course there’s a solution to this as well but it requires a major paradigm shift. People need to embrace, on their own without coercion, a belief system that changes how they see themselves and the world around them in a fundamental way. Most of the world’s religions were created in response to the existing power structures so they don’t offer any real solutions on that front and in the case of monotheism actually make the problem worse. One only has to consider the period of violent forced conversations that every monotheistic religion has gone through at its birth to realize this.

And no, materialism doesn’t work either because it was created solely to serve the empire and isn’t actually reflective of how reality works. Go read fringe physics or the current major problem faced by the “placebo effect” in biology for examples of this. The Victorian era created materialist model most scientists are working in simply by convention and threat of losing their funding if they rock the boat simply does not actually reflect reality.

There is a solution though. One that works perfectly in tandem with the new garden of Eden we would build with permaculture. But for that we have to go back to what humans believed before these power structures were put in place. It’s animism. The idea that spirits are real and everything is a spirit. That’s not everything has a spirit, the concept of ownership as we think of it came with structures of power. No, everything is a spirit.

When you start looking at the world in this way, then everyone’s favorite gods can exist at once because why can’t there be three different gods represented by the sun who can work through solar energy? The pagan religions are generally pretty ok with this idea already. Most modern pagans are already working from an animiat model at least partially without even realizing it. Most pagan religions can easily be happily adapted to fit an animist model, after all they pretty much all ultimately descended from one anyway. Everyone’s gods are real! Why not?

Of course you have to throw away broken old ideas that can’t get along with others. That means the monotheistic religions, including materialsm (which is really just a monotheism that replaced god with some strange inexplicable law of nature that everything supposedly obeys except when it doesn’t) have to go, because they can’t play nice with others the way most pagan religions can, because unlike most pagan religions, they demand exclusivity over reality. They have to be the only truth or they can’t work. In this respect they are ultimately ideas which are infected with Wetiko, that is the mind-virus of endless consumption without consideration, and they therefore fly in the face of the cyclical universe we live in and don’t get along with anyone.

Concerning Love

Everyone is possessed by division, even me. The part of me that gets a sick sort of thrill out of my separation from the mundanes or even just calls them that is evidence to the fact. The entire universe is possessed. Truly that was the fall; the division. The separation of Anu from itself. The division of Dryghtyn into the twin energies. In truth on a level there is no separation and yet still it is.

“For I am divided for love’s sake, for the chance of union.” ~The Book of the Law, Alister Crowley

This in a form is a form of possession yet because it permiates the all, it is not an externally imposed one. We are all deranged in a form, but it is from this derangement that all things come into being. Nothing can happen without contrast. Sorrow and joy are but two sides of the same coin.

However, this does not mean we need to let the possession take over. Love is the transcendence; union from the division and because of it. Love will save us all in the end but it’s up to us to bring it about. Love is the fullness of the all manifest through the union of the divided.

The Ravens Are Watching

The ravens are watching me
A thousand thousand eyes
Green, Orange, Yellow
Glowing, piercing in the night
From dark dead trees above
They’re watching me
Breathless and still
They’re watching me
As I walk through
They’re watching me
They don’t look real
They’re watching me
Why?

Chaos and Order

Both chaos and order had a role to play in humanity’s development. Humanity in its infantile state and later growing states didn’t have the understanding and presence of mind to operate without restraint. However fully restrained, they would never grow. After all, it’s through making mistakes and learning from them that we truly grow. Humanity is now ready to proceed beyond such things and in a kind of hilariously cruel irony, it’s that very restraint that stands in its way now.


originally posted on Facebook

Raven’s Call

Can you hear the Raven’s call
as she calls out in the morning?
Can you hear the Raven’s call?
Mother nature’s scorning.

Can you hear the Raven’s call
as she sings out sullen warnings?
Can you hear the Raven’s call?
Follow not your plans suborning.

Hurried hopeful that you not fall
Can you hear the Raven’s call?
If her warning hear you null,
it is you she will be mourning