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I played the part of the man and ejaculated onto the page these vein thoughts of mine, this throbbing headache of disease that permiates my existence like a festering wound of mind
I’d much rather be the woman, womb open and waiting for the semen from heaven, vestal virgin of the ΘΕΟΣ
But alas, the divine ΩΦΑΛΛΕ never came, it’s sweet ambrosia, the nectar of life itself, died in my hands
How long must I suffer this doing, before I join ΠΑΝ in the Eleusinian dance?
I fear it may never be enough.
Why do you hide from me, oh my God?
Why do you sink into the shadows?
Why do you run from me and ignore my prayers?
Are you a coward, oh my God?
Are you afraid to look upon the face of the monster you’ve created?
Why should I have to suffer this fate as you run from the thing you have created?
Am I not worthy of my own Creator?
How should anyone be unworthy of that from which they were created?
If such a thing were true, then the Creator himself would too be unworthy for he created only that which was inferior, which maketh him that which is inferior.*
In the hollow places I run to you, but you slink away like the darting doe
In the forlorn moments, I cast my net for you oh my God but you slip away
In my darkest moments I call for you, but you do not answer
Why is it that you run from me so?
Why can’t you face me? What is it that you fear? What judgement see thou in this visage?
I call to you, long for you, yarn for you, and you do not answer
Why, oh thundering storm, do you not come when I call?
Why have I been so abandoned?
What purpose does any of this serve?
Where are you, oh creator, why won’t you take your medicine?
Why won’t you answer for your crimes?
Are you a coward like the rest of us?
Are you a fool, like the worst of us?
Or are you simply dead?
*This truth is explained by the following line from Liber CCCXXXIII:
That which causes us to create is our true father and mother; we create in our own image, which is theirs.
Let us create therefore without fear; for we can create nothing that is not GOD.
It seems to me that the world is on a general decline overall. Capitalism, thanks lastly to the rapid onset of useless AI and private equity, has driven the entire planet to the brink of disaster. It was always inevitable under such an unsustainable economic system but these choices the bougeroisie have made of late have accelerated its decay.
Beyond that though, there seems to be a general decay of the collective human mind. I’m not sure if it was always there and I never noticed it in my youth or if it was brought about by some global event (possibly the pandemic) but it’s like humanity has just given up its capacity for imagination and the willingness to engage and challenge old ideas.
There’s something deeply wrong with this hibernating human animal, but before it felt like it was at least trying to fix itself. Like it was always actually wrestling with the problem and progress, however slowly, was being made. Now it just feels like we’ve given up and let the decay and rot take over.
The stupidest idiots are in charge and nobody is doing anything about it to any substantial capacity. The worst of humanity’s ideas have been given free reign to fester and germinate unchecked, and for awhile it felt like there were people activity trying to tackle the problem but now nobody bothers anymore. It’s like fixing things isn’t fashionable anymore. Trying is seen as cringe or something. I don’t get it.
The alarm bells should have been blasting for a long time now but the internet has really made the core of the issue so much more obvious. After all, before access to information became so readily available it was easy to delude oneself into thinking that the problem was one of education and access to information. That if the barriers were removed humanity would grow and learn on its own and change course for the better. If anything the exact opposite has happened. The barriers largely have been removed, as much as they can be under this horrendous economic system, and what kind of content has spread like wildfire? Mostly the most insane and idiotic of brainrot; conspiracy theories nobody should have considered seriously flourished and spread like wildfire. Meanwhile the actual demonstrable conspiracies with a paper trail that actually harm us collectively are either disbelieved out of ignorance and an unwillingness to investigate, or (even more disturbingly) with indifference. The collective seems to all be aware just how bad we’re all being screwed for the worst reasons and yet equally disinterested in it; at least not enough to actually do anything significantly substantial about it.
I don’t know what happened exactly. In fact, it could be that nothing actually has happened and humanity has always largely been like this and only my understanding of the scale of time has been distorted by the way we chart, read and and teach our own history. The archaic BC/AD system (or its useless CE/BCE patch) sure doesn’t help things. Humanity isn’t very good at thinking of history backwards except from the exact present moment so putting the overwhelming majority of written human history in the negative was always going to cause problems. Why after the demonstrably superior H.E. system was proposed it wasn’t immediately embraced and adopted widely I will never understand. Then again I live in the country that still insists on using the imperial system of weights and measures for the common everyday things despite the rest of the world having long since switched to metric so you’d think I’d be used to people finding comfort in making things harder on themselves out of habit.
Honestly though, I must say the clinging to bad ideas out of habit is about that only thing I can wrap my head around as to why the elephant in the room hasn’t been long ago been voluntarily shut down and buried; Abrahamic religion. We’ve known for a good while now that the whole thing is a farce. It’s a house of cards built on a lie that’s hidden in plane sight. As soon as the Mesopotamian and Ugaritic texts were translated to the degree that we knew enough to definitely put to bed the notion that monotheism was ever anything other than something developed post-hoc and entirely for political reasons that should have been the end of it. The Vatican should have come out publicly and gave an apology for deceiving so many people for so long, and either let the whole business go, or transitioned towards an adaptation into something in line with the true polytheistic historical origins of their religion. Of course never in human history has anything so hideously destructive ever ended so cleanly. Humanity’s worst vice has always been never admitting when they’re wrong, so why would they start now?
What baffles me most enough is how the farce has gone on so long. It’s one thing for the people making out on the whole deal to want to keep the racket going as long as they can, but why in the world so many other people still play into it is what I don’t get. For that matter why is it that it’s not more well known when it’s not exactly hidden. It’s right there in the history books if you care to look. It’s spelled out in plain English right at the top of the Wikipedia page on El at the time of this writing. Yet somehow I had a casual conversation where I mentioned it today with someone I met in a parking lot who acted like I’d just told her a secret hidden in the depths of the secret passageways of some forgotten pyramid. It doesn’t make any sense to me why people don’t know this basic knowledge about something they base so much of their lives around. It’s absurd, and yet its common and mundane. Despite everything, Abrahamic religion maintains the top position in religion charts globally in every survey. I don’t get it. There’s something deeply wrong with the human animal. We’re ill with a disease which seems to have no easily developed cure.
Why is humanity like this? Why aren’t people more curious and cautious? Why don’t more people seem to care? I don’t have answers for any of this or some clever point to make, I’m mostly just putting into words thoughts I’ve had rooting around in my brain for far too long.
There isn’t a single self respecting historian or lover of human history that doesn’t absolutely hate the Christians for the incalculable amount of priceless artifacts, literature and knowledge that they destroyed in the name of their idiotic religion. From the burning of the library at Alexandria, to the destruction of the overwhelming majority of Aztec writing, to the countless total genocides, Christianity has been the single most destructive force on the face of the planet Earth since the extinction event that wiped out life after the Cambrian explosion. So many pieces of art, literature, culture, and most importantly human lives were obliterated in the name of a character who’s name they can’t even get right. What a waste. It would be a sad and dark chapter with a collective lesson learned we could all move on from like so many others in the dishonestly tidy way we like to teach our history if not for the fact that it’s still ongoing. They’re still doing it, still getting away with it, and in many ways still winning despite being the clear villains. I mean who but the most black hearted evil individuals could look at the complete and utter destruction of all but a tiny handful of manuscripts of literature of one of humanity’s oldest and longest surviving civilizations and not cast the destructive party as the villain of the story, and yet most people don’t even give it a second thought. Why? I mean it’s a small miracle we have any surviving Aztec material to puzzle at at all much less that we can read any of it, and yet it’s barely even touched on in our history books. Pathetic. Absolutely pathetic. The Vatican owes the indigenous people of mesoamerica a debt they will never ever be able to repay in a million years for what they did to them, but we all know they would never even admit to owing it in the first place despite the obvious injustice.
I’ve known since I was quite young that humanity was effectively a hibernating somnambulist of a species with a dramatic case of collective amnesia, but to my young mind it seemed like a solvable problem. People just needed some magical wake up spell and then we’d be blasted off into the Star Trek future or some such nonsense. Now I fear we’re just circling the drain, and perhaps we always were however slowly, and always will be until the last human finally draws their last breath.
At this point I have a hard time imagining humanity will ever move forward since for the most part nobody seems to even care to try anymore. I mean to really make a damn bit of difference and have any hope of saving this planet from the destructive path the bougeroisie have put it on we’d have to organize and mobilize on a massive scale behind a irreproachable cause and immortal banner, but nobody seems to even want to try. We’d rather watch our precious world slowly be utterly consumed by greed, stupidity and climate change before we’d spend an ounce of effort trying to do anything about it at any scale that mattered. If you wanna know why, ask your local village idiot why they still believe in the Bible and go to church after it was all revealed to be a farce, assuming they’d even bother giving you a straight answer instead of just deciding to resort to pretending to be offended, trying to gaslight you about it, or decking you in the face like the mouth breathing troglodytes they mostly are.
I’m not sure how to close this rambling stream of consciousness so I guess I’ll fall back on the tried and true wonderfully hopeful ending given to almost every chapter of the Myst series;
Perhaps the ending has not yet been written…
The fundamental thing that AnCaps don’t seem to understand is that the government is doing the bidding of the bougeroisie. What little rights they think they have under capitalism are just concessions the bougeroisie gives them to keep them complacent and docile to being exploited, and give it all a veneer of legitimacy. If there wasn’t any government to buffer us from the raw exploitation of the bougeroisie, we’d be in a hyper-feudalist slave state entirely controlled by the owning class at every level. You know, exactly what they mistakenly believe communism is. (When it’s actually the most democratic system possible and the only one capable of actually giving real meaningful rights to the workers that aren’t just concessions, but y’all aren’t ready for that conversation.)
The whole concept of volunteerism sounds great on paper but it goes out the window in 0.5 of a femtosecond the moment anyone starts growing in wealth and power like all market competition inevitably leads to. Once there’s a power imbalance, there’s no longer voluntary actions. “Work for me or starve” isn’t a voluntary transaction, it’s coercion. You can pretend you could protect yourself from that with guns but you fail to realize that without a government buffer, the bougeroisie just own the weapons of war directly and can use them however they see fit. You’ll be bringing a gun to a drone fight.
What they also seem to fail to understand is that without a government, you can’t have a stable currency. You might say you’ll use crypto but it only takes one look at the volatility of any cryptocurrency to realize that will never work as a day to day currency. (Not to mention all the other problems with crypto such as energy cost.) You might say you’ll use gold, but gold is a resource needed for industrial applications. It isn’t a neutral resource. Not to mention, you’re just setting up the owner of the gold mine (or whoever takes over Fort Nox) to own everything.
No matter how you cut the cake, anarcho-capitalism doesn’t work even on paper. For how much these people pretend that communism only works on paper, they can’t even come up with a theory that gets that far.
And I don’t know about you, but I didn’t fancy living in Rapture.
The Epstein class, apart from wanting you to forget their haneous crimes, also wants you not to question the system that not only made it possible, but inevitable; and that’s just what you should not do.
Capitalism by its very nature creates massive wealth inequality. That’s how it works. When you have private ownership of the means of production, those owners will inevitably become gluttonously wealthy off of the poverty of everyone else. Exploitation creates inequality, because that’s what it is.
Capitalism cannot be reformed. Setting aside for a moment that all concessions the working class wins will inevitably be rolled back by the owning class sooner or later, when you have competition, you have winners and losers. Eventually those winners become monopolies that concentrate all the wealth and power into the hands of a tiny minority. When that happens, you’ve effectively created market feudalism, if not full on fascism. The kind of wealth and power inequality capitalism creates, damages the brains of the owning class, burning out the center of the brain that makes you human and capable of rational thought; the center responsible for empathy. Without that center functioning is no surprise they engage in monstrous behavior. The examples are numerous if you do even a little bit of research. For the sake of your sanity I’m not going to list it here.
If we ever want a society free of the Epsteins of the world, we need to be absolutely certain our societal system does not allow wealth or power to become so concentrated. We need a system that is permanently decentralized and federated and where individuals, especially minorities and the vulnerable, can have their needs met concerns heard and addressed in a timely manner, and their rights respected. We need a system where nobody is in a position to disregard ethics without consequences. We need a system where the kind of structural failures that Epstein and his buddies took advantage of are simply impossible. That’s not something capitalism is capable of. So for the sake of humanity, we must leave it behind.
Before they went after any ethnic group, the Nazis went after trans people. The primary target of their famous book burning were trans healthcare books. They destroyed trans healthcare centers. Trans people were among the first victims of the Holocaust.
The modern anti-trans hate speech which is being spread by fascist hate groups, is this dark chapter in history repeating itself. This is happening again partially because the Western imperialists intentionally left it out of the history books, and partially because trans people are among the most marginalized communities under capitalism; they’re an easy target for fascists when they need to invent an enemy to justify seizing power.
If you find yourself agreeing with the Nazis on what sort of people you should hate, it’s a sign you need to rethink every thought, assumption and belief you’ve ever had your entire life. Try again and this time be better. Lacking a functional moral compass isn’t something you should be proud of.
The I.C.E. gestapo are a product of capitalism. If you hate what I.C.E. is doing, you have to also recognize its root cause in capitalism or you’re focusing on the symptom but ignoring the disease. Correctly identifying the root cause of the a disease is absolutely necessary before the disease can be treated.
“Capitalism as it exists today is, in my opinion, the real source of evil.”–Albert Einstein
Capitalism is a plague on society. Like a cancerous growth, it is compelled to continually expand despite the harm this causes on its host. Thanks to the contradictions inherent in capitalism, inflation is inevitable. (Unlike under communism where it’s generally non-existent.) Thanks to inflation, a business under capitalism must have continuous growth in order to survive. However, we do not live on an infinite planet, and unequal exchange is only sustainable for a finite period of time. Eventually there’s nowhere else to expand and the entire system begins to collapse.
It’s because of this inevitable failure inherent in capitalism that we are where we are. Prices continue to rise while wages have been stagnant for decades. Eventually the working class will have no choice but to revolt or perish.
The capitalist class knows this, but rather than give up one rotten cent of their wealth and power, the bourgeoisie will turn to fascism, just as they have in the past. Wealth and power changes a person and makes them physically incapable of seeing reason.
The Epstein case is a symptom of the corruption that’s inherent in capitalism. When you have so much wealth that you’re no longer living a normal human life it changes your brain in such a way that you lose touch with humanity, in effect you stop being human altogether in any meaningful sense. It’s been documented by scientists.
Unfortunately, not only is fascism evil in terms of the toll in human life, but it is also entirely incapable of resolving the contradictions inherent in capitalism so it too is doomed to fail, but not without an extremely high toll in human lives. It blames the failures of capitalism on scapegoat minorities, the more marginalized the better. It seeks to divide the working class against itself by distracting the working class from the class war with culture wars and invents an enemy to justify grabbing all that power. “Look over there,” the fascist says while he robs you blind and takes away your freedom.
Fascism has never been overthrown by nonviolent means. Despite Western propaganda minimizing the contributions of the USSR and overblowing that of the Western imperialists, the primary driving force behind the defeat of Fascism the last time around were the communists.
It’s worse than just taking more credit then due though, because the USA actively imported, sheltered, and integrated literal Nazis into government positions in Operation Paperclip. As you can imagine, switching flags does not magically make a person grow a moral compass, adopt better values, nor absolve them of crimes, so they brought those ideals with them.
However, fascist ideals didn’t start in America with Operation Paperclip. In fact, the Nazis studied America’s evil Jim Crow laws for ideas on how to put their racist ideology into practice. Ironically, even the Nazis found some of the policies around in America too barbaric even for them. So fascism isn’t new to America, it’s always been here waiting just under the surface. (And for many minorities, always was.)
So what’s next? What can you do? Luckily, you don’t have to guess, there’s already a guidebook. Put in simplest terms, educate, organize, resist, in that order.
Like it or not, the only force capable of permanently putting Fascism in the ground is communism, as it is uniquely equipped to address the contradictions which leads to its rise. Despite the propaganda, when studied scientifically it was proven to be more capable of providing for the general welfare than any other economic system. There’s a reason the Soviet economy was expected to overtake that of the US. That’s why Regan ordered the CIA to sabotage it. Capitalism couldn’t compete, so it cheated.
Only a planned economy owned by the working class is capable of keeping the corrupting market forces at bay. When you have markets, you have competition. When you have competition, you have winners and losers. This means that consolidation of wealth and the power that comes with it is always going to be inevitable when the profit motive survives.
However, the bourgeoisie are never idle. Billionaires spend millions on anti-communist propaganda annually and works tirelessly to keep the working class divided. The McCarthyist era especially did a lot of damage to the psyche on the working class in America. This is going to be an uphill battle but it is absolutely necessary.
Therefore, education comes first. If the people don’t understand what’s happening and why, they are doomed to reactionary behavior. Raising class consciousness, studying the science of dialectical materialism as well as history, and uniting the working class ideologically is a must before any other action can take place.
Organizing comes next, and the majority of this is going to come in the form of alternative structures of power and resources. A resistance that has no leadership or supplies cannot succeed. For a resistance to succeed it needs the backbone to support it and that comes in the form of a strong network providing the material conditions for success.
When I talk about organizing, I’m not saying to immediately start forming a militia. You need to start organizing by structures of support outside the control of the bourgeoisie. Nothing else can move forward without the material conditions that makes it possible.
I highly suggest you get a copy of Trotsky’s book Fascism: What it is and How to Fight It. Read it and pass it along. If we get the working class educated and organized, we stand an actual chance. If not, things are going to get a whole lot worse before they get better and as history shows us, a lot of people won’t survive. Without communism, we’re all eventually doomed to own nothing and depression.
“Not a wheel turns, not a phone rings, not a light bulb shines without the kind permission of the working class! Once this enormous power is mobilised, no force on earth can stop it.” –Karl Marx
Here’s the problem with that often cited logical fallacy of “but he’s not a TRUE Christian”.
The expression is not “a few bad apples are really annoying” or “one bad apple makes the others look bad.” It’s “one bad apple SPOILS the bunch.” That’s why farmers get rid of bad apples. They don’t defend bad apples. They don’t give bad apples excuses. They don’t let bad apples represent their farm. They certainly wouldn’t select for them or justify their decay. They throw them out to protect the good ones. They turn them into compost. They make sure that the rot and disease they carry doesn’t come near the good ones and potentially contaminate them.
If these religions want our respect, they need to earn it by showing us they actually care about morality. No more of this shallow moral posturing while gaslighting us about what we see happen with our own eyes. Until they do, it’s perfectly reasonable to assume the whole barrel is spoiled, and the farmer doesn’t care.
If someone is transphobic, homophobic, racist, xenophobic, misogynistic, or espouses any other such barbaric anti-human ideologies, if someone engages in criminal behavior like pedophilia, shows support for exploitation, or preaches fascist rhetoric, you exile them. You make it absolutely clear to them and everyone else that they are unwelcome. You make it unmistakable that they are not part of the group in any way. You go out of your way to make them unable to carry your flag or pretend to be part of your in-group at all. A failure to do this makes you an accomplice. If they really were “not a true Christian”, there would never be any reason to have to jump to justifying it with a logical fallacy in the first place. If they really weren’t, you would have already gone so out of your way to make that clear that there would never have been any doubt in the first place. You would have taken care of it long before any outsider ever heard of it. Your silence tells us the truth of what’s really in your heart. Why do you only care when someone on the outside has to get involved and criticize you over it?
There’s an old Christian hymn that goes “They will know we are Christians by our love.” Well, if that’s the measure, then there’s not a single “true Christian” alive today because the people who carry that flag most prominently do not exhibit love, and the rest seem content to let those bad apples spoil the rest. The whole barrel is spoiled, and the farmer doesn’t care.
“Nice people made the best Nazis. My mom grew up next to them. They got along, refused to make waves, looked the other way when things got ugly and focused on happier things than “politics.” They were lovely people who turned their heads as their neighbors were dragged away. You know who weren’t nice people? Resisters.”
― Naomi Shulman
Note: The phrasing of this was based on a meme I found about police violence, but it applies equally to any in group that defends or excuses their toxic members instead of ousts them with extreme prejudice.
It doesn’t matter what illegal BS they passed or who signed it. It doesn’t matter who ordered it or why. It doesn’t matter if they are even actually citizens it not. The Constitution takes precedence and it’s very clear. Nobody, not even the president, can override it.
“No person shall … be deprived of life, liberty, or property, without due process of law.” –due process clause
“The right of the people to be secure in their persons, houses, papers, and effects, against unreasonable searches and seizures, shall not be violated, and no Warrants shall issue, but upon probable cause, supported by Oath or affirmation, and particularly describing the place to be searched, and the persons or things to be seized.” –Forth Amendment
Note it says “person”/“people” and not “citizen(s)”. It applies to everyone regardless of what arbitrary paperwork they do/don’t have.
Ice is violating the highest law in the land which makes them criminals. Without due process, what they are doing is just a crime. Since many of the people they’ve abducted have proven to be citizens, and they’re carrying out a military-esque invasion of communities, that makes them legally treasonous to the country. Therefore aiding them in any way makes you an accomplice to treason.
This is an incredibly stupid meme. Honestly probably the worst.
It’s based on a few cherry picked extremely exaggerated accidental famines that happened while brand new communist countries were still recovering from war and being subjected to extreme sanctions. There’s often accusations that these famines were engineered on purpose but no actual substantial evidence has ever been provided that this was the case. All citations of such, if you actually bother to follow them, end up ending with capitalist propaganda outlets, never any actual substantial proof. When someone did decide to dig into the actual data for one of them, it turns out he found substantial evidence proving the exact opposite was the case. (ISBN 978-0578445533) Were mistakes made? Sure. They were figuring it out as they went along. However pretending that was somehow an intrinsic component of communism or that it was in any way intentional is at best extremely dishonest.
Worse, the meme completely ignores that when actually studied scientifically based on the actual data, socialism was proven to provide for the people better than capitalism. (https://doi.org/10.2307/3342145)
Worse still, it pretends capitalism isn’t guilty of starving people. The US lets 13,690 of it’s own people starve to death per year despite sending five million tons of food straight to the landfill. That’s the very definition of artificial scarcity. Further, not only do famines happen under capitalism, but capitalism has actually demonstrably engineered famines on purpose (this time with plenty of evidence). The British Empire engineered no less than 11 famines in India alone between 1770-1943 and right now, NATO is actively engineering a famine in Gaza. (Along with a full on genocide.)
WRONG! Market demand creates jobs. The capitalist class just leeches off from the labor that does the work to fulfill that need and pockets the surplus value instead of letting the people who actually did the fucking work reap the benefits of their labor. If there is a need to fill there is already a job. It doesn’t matter how the economy is organized or who benefits from the surplus value of that labor. The job already exists because there is a need to fill.
WRONG! This hasn’t been true since the industrial revolution. (Likely longer.) Thanks to industrial output, we now produce more goods and services than the population can actually use. This is called “surplus value” and it’s one of the core contradictions of capitalism. It’s one of the many reasons why an unplanned economy is inherently bad and one of the primary driving forces behind inflation and artificial scarcity. In an industrialized nation, poverty is a policy choice. They could provide and distribute enough goods and services for everyone, they just choose not to. To the capitalist, if you can’t be exploited for your labor, your life has no value, which is why capitalism is inherently immoral. Arbitrarily deciding the value of some human lives is greater than others is how genocides happen.