You Ain’t Free

If you can’t get high without getting arrested, you ain’t free.

If you can’t merely exist in the country without getting disappeared to a foreign concentration camp, you ain’t free.

If you can’t avoid being conscripted, you ain’t free.

If you can’t avoid being a wage slave without sacrificing your basic needs, you ain’t free.

If you can’t swear on national TV, you ain’t free.

If you can’t swear in your music without getting a stupid ass sticker stuck on the cover, you ain’t free.

If you can’t be autistic without ending up on a fuckin’ list, you ain’t free.

If you can’t piss in the bathroom you identify as, you ain’t free.

If you can’t get healthcare without jumping through hoops or going broke, you ain’t free.

If some court gets to decide on your healthcare, you ain’t free.

If you can’t paint art on the side of a building without being charged with a crime, you ain’t free.

If you can’t sleep on a park bench, you ain’t free.

If you can’t camp on public land, you ain’t free.

If you can’t afford to own a house with a full time job, you ain’t free.

If you can’t keep your tax dollars from going to support genocide, you ain’t free.

If you need 2 weeks notice and to get approval just to take a day to yourself, you ain’t free.

If you can’t afford to go to a concert because a third party wants to charge you a bullshit “service fee”, you ain’t free.

If you can end up homeless due to no fault of your own, you ain’t free.

If you can’t be a minority without being treated like a second-class citizen, you ain’t free.

If you can’t get married without losing your benefits, you ain’t free.

If you can’t exist without being documented, you ain’t free.

If you can’t afford the cost of living, you ain’t free.

If you’re forced to work multiple jobs just to survive, you ain’t free.

If you can’t own the means to defend yourself, you ain’t free.

If you can’t join a union without threatening your job, you ain’t free.

If you can’t express a leftist opinion without worrying about your safety or security, you ain’t free.

If you can’t choose your attire, you ain’t free.

If you can’t afford vacation time, you ain’t free.

If you can’t go swimming in a public waterway because it’s so polluted, you ain’t free.

If you can’t fully practice your ancestral religion, you ain’t free.

If you can’t die without your corpse being used to incubate a baby, you ain’t free.

if you can’t afford to take sick leave, you ain’t free.

If you can’t decide whether or not you want to have a baby, you ain’t free.

If you have to pay for your medication, you ain’t free.

If you can’t worship or not worship the god of your choosing without punishment, you ain’t free.

If you can’t get where you’re going without owning a car or paying someone who does, you ain’t free.

If your country tells you what to think, what to believe, or what to feel, you ain’t free.

If you can’t prevent your rights from being taken away, you ain’t free.

The Life Review

After you have arrived in Kur, when you are brought before the assembly, they will review your life with you and your deeds will be weighed; your sins against your service. Everything you do in service to the Divine will be taken into account. However it must be something you yourself did. Just like nobody else can serve as your substitute for the consequences of your sins, nobody else’s work will be taken as your own. Paying or ordering someone else to do it for you doesn’t make their accomplishments yours. This is your life that’s being examined, not theirs. Once the assembly has come to a decision and rendered a verdict, that is to be your fate in Kur.

Don’t sell yourself short, anything you do in service to the Divine is counted, however transitory or seemingly small. You don’t have to build ziggurats to do acts of service that are meaningful. Any time you make an offering or do something to further the divine order, you’re performing acts of service. Whenever that’s making a drawing, singing a song, doing a dance, building a temple, or just living according to the divine values; it all counts. 

However this is also a warning; anything you do against the divine order is sinful and will be weighed against you. Remember that Enki decreed a destiny of value to every single person no matter their ability. When you do things that harm others, you violate that destiny. Even seemingly small things like voting for someone who supports harmful policies will count against you. So be mindful of your actions and their consequences, not just to you but to all. It’s your actions that matter; not your thoughts and not your words.

Live in service to the Divine and protect the divine order and you have nothing to fear in death. Your place in Urugal will be secure.

Conservatism is a Trick

The latest headlines; More racism from the Whitehouse.

“Trump orders all federal diversity, equity and inclusion employees placed on paid leave. It also asks federal agencies to submit a written plan by Jan. 31 for dismissing the employees.” —NBC News

So I guess we’re no longer making sure everyone has a seat at the table. So much for equal protection under the law. Talk about unamerican. Trump just throws away our founding principles and then shits on them.

He called it “radical and wasteful”. I guess all of America is radical and wasteful then Mr President?

Disgusting.

For as much as conservatives want to pretend they’re the party of American principles and values, they sure love throwing them to the wayside and shitting all over them at every opportunity.

I left the right for the same reason I left Christianity; it’s a bait and switch game of hypocritical bullshit. Say one thing while doing the opposite.

What’s sad is so many don’t even comprehend the reality of it. Christians are supposed to aspire to live like Christ but instead they do the opposite.Love thy neighbor as thyself? No can’t do that, they’re gay, or trans, or Muslim, or undocumented.Blessed are the meek for they will inherit the Earth? No thanks I’ll vote for the most obnoxious, money and power hungry grifter I can find. It is easier for a camel to fit through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God? I’ll ignore than and pretend the most pious man is the adulterer rapist billionaire because sometimes he poses for photo ops with a Bible.

When I say conservatives are stupid, this kind of shit is why. It’s like willfully pulling the wool over your own eyes and then blaming your neighbor for not being able to see where you’re going.

And they love to repeat the word freedom over and over but it’s clear none of them even know what it means and if they did they’d realize they don’t actually want freedom. Freedom is the right to do anything you want as long as you’re not hurting anyone else, including stuff you don’t like. That means smoking pot, that means getting an abortion, (anyone else doesn’t apply to a fetus, that isn’t a person and you’re just an idiot who hasn’t done the homework if you think otherwise), that means practicing witchcraft, that means playing violent video games, that means swearing in public, that means burning a Bible in the middle of town square, that means shooting up with heroin. That means being in the country undocumented without it being illegal. Don’t like that stuff? Then you’re not actually in favor of freedom so shut the fuck up about it. If an America where you can do all those things legally isn’t the America you want then you actually hate freedom. Because that’s what words mean.

I’m convinced most conservatives have never opened a dictionary for how much they use words wrong. They love to call stuff communist but I doubt a single one of them has ever even read Marx so how the fuck do they expect to know what that word actually means? They never do the homework.

Concerning Project 2025

Do what thou whilt shall be the whole of the law.

Project 2025 is the greatest existential threat our democracy has ever faced.

As you may or may not know know, as much as I like to joke about violence and love violent video games, I’m a sworn pacifist. I would never jump to violence if I think there’s any chance of finding a way of avoiding it. However, that doesn’t mean I don’t recognize when there’s a need for self-defense and prepare for that accordingly. Concerning Project 2025, like it or not, if you want to keep living in a democracy, you’re going to have to arm yourself or you’re gonna let them win.

Trump already said he’s gonna do another Jan 6 when he doesn’t win. This is a serious concern. Remember, they all already have guns. Voting alone is very likely to not be enough.

Don’t get me wrong, absolutely go out and vote blue on the entire ticket.

It’s incredibly important to utilize the democracy we have to try to defend it. However our enemies absolutely refuse to let their inevitable loss stop them from seizing power. Like it or not, you’re gonna have to be willing to fight to defend democracy or you’re going to lose it. I hate that it’s come to this but this is the reality of the time we live in. This existential threat must be treated seriously or we stand a very real chance of being turned into a fascist dictatorship with a narcissistic psychopath with dementia as our dictator. Our domestic enemies are taking this seriously so we have to as well, refuse at your own peril.

“We are in the process of the second American Revolution, which will remain bloodless if the left allows it to be,” says Kevin Roberts, head of the Heritage Foundation; architect of Project 2025.

When I say this is an existential threat to the survival of our country as we know it, I mean it. This quote makes it pretty clear what they intend to do if we let them get away with it, so we are morally obligated to oppose it.

Arm yourselves lefties. Arm yourself so we don’t lose what we have.

You must be ready to fight for freedom or lose it. If you love freedom as I do, and we won’t have it if we don’t stand up for it. Many of us and our loved ones don’t stand a chance if we let this coup succeed.

Love is the law, love under will.

Concerned but determined,
Vanessa

I Dreamed…

A cursed record sits spinning slowly in the record player as I set myself to slumber in the ashes of my mind.

I dreamed about dead things watching from under the stairs. I dreamed of industrial madness consuming the minds of the unwashed masses. I dreamed about dragons coming down to consume the flesh of the common man, dazed and stupefied in external extraction ecstacy. I dreamed about thunder and the sound of rain echoing off the clouds of eternity. And I dreamed of the devil himself watching, waiting, hungrily for my soul to be offered up in a moment of sheer panic. I dreamed of death and the sound of drums.

Thunder Perfect Mind by Nurse With Wound is the name of that spinning disk. Explore at your own peril.